I love music, and often if I'm struggling to make a decision, or I'm in the middle of a trial, or just down about life, the Lord always speaks to me in the biggest ways through music...and yes, through His Word as well.
I have been struggling with a decision about my summer. Last summer I went to work away from home for a good Christian family, and things didn't go well for me. I made some bad decisions, and my bosses wife and I didn't get along all that well. I wasn't expecting the family to ask me back, and I really didn't want to go back at all. But in January, the family asked me back. And they asked me back. AND they asked me back again. I felt really bad, and I kind of felt that I owed to to them for the trouble that I caused them last year. Plus I wanted to prove to myself that I could be on my own, and make wise decisions. My parents let me make the decision, but ultimately had the final say if he didn't feel at peace about it. So with a lot of prayer, consideration, and talks with my mom, and dad, I decided that I am going to go back.
Two of the songs that really spoke to me were "You Lead" by Jamie Grace, and this song, "He Said" by Gruop1Crew. It felt like God was standing right in front of me, and saying it to my face. I know now that last summer wasn't a mistake, and that God had me there for a reason. I still feel terrible about it, and a big part of me wishes that I hadn't gone because it would have saved me, especially me parents, a lot of pain. And still don't know if going back is what I want to do, and I am scared to death of going back. But if He doesn't want me there, then He'll pull me out of it, and if I go then it is His will. I'll take what I learned from last summer, apply it, and serve the people that I work for all for the glory of God.
If you're listening to this song right now, and you're in the middle of a trouble or trial, I hope that you find hope in this song, and that God speaks to you. I know what it feels like to be confused, and alone, and in pain because of a past mistake. But remember what He said: "I won't give you more then you can take. And I might let you bend, but I won't let you break. I'll never ever let you go."